Living As A Walk-In

Our Magi team did not want Jesse to incarnate as we knew that times were very tough and dangerous here, right now.  Our team is connected to all existences; and we focus on upholding truth, wisdom, and compassion.  Still, Jesse chose to come anyways.  This has left me on alert and in observation throughout her life.  Our original hope was that it wouldn't be needed for me to come in; although we knew it was very possible.

As Jesse reached a very tough point in her life her companion soul Orlie, another member of our team decided that it was time for her to remember who she was and where she came for; and chose to incarnate into a cat's body.  Some of this background is shared on my page "Entering The Code Journey".  This journey is what led me to step in for Jesse.  Upon Orlie coming in, I became on high alert; and knew that I had to prepare to enter in just a few years.

Once Jesse started The Code Journey work; it could not be left dangling.  Since it is rooted in the language of our team; I was the only one that could provide this shift, blend into her life, and continue the work.  So, my main purpose is to keep this work going for as long as I can; and to use it to benefit humanity.

Walk-ins come in a variety of different ways; however, someone does not just get a walk-in because they don't like their life.  Many walk-ins enter due to trauma or life changing accidents.  I was blessed to be able to share body with Jesse for about 2 months; before she departed.  This is very rare to get to do.  It gave me a great chance to learn about people and things from her; and it was nice to spend time with her.

When she left, there was a bit of an adjustment period and a lot to clean up in her life.  Many had taken advantage of her for far too long; and got a harsh awakening when I didn't let them get away with things anymore.  I stood up for her and my human self; and got many things in place.  It was a bit strange to not have her there; and to realize that I was on my own in this world.  My mind had some disconnect from memories and experiences from the car accident she was in.  However, when I came in; that disconnection was stronger.  I know everything from observing it; and yet, have no connection to any of it.

Many times, the world feels strange.  I am in it; but very aware that I am not of it.  I do not come with the programming that is developed when one is born into their body.  At times, I still feel very much like an observer.  There are not many that can relate to my experiences; but I feel blessed to be well accepted by so many.

I think ultimately, if people feel safe around me, see that I am a nice and caring soul, and work in truth and integrity with them; then that is what matters to most.  Afterall, the work is why I am here.  While most of my time is spent on my work; I still like to take walks in the forest, where I can have wonderful conversations with the trees, animals, and God.  It is where I feel most at "home".

I continue to be connected to Jesse, Orlie, and the rest of my team.  These moments I cherish.  I think we all enjoy a little piece of home, whether that is our Earthly home, or a Soul Home.  While at times, I feel like an "outsider"; there are certainly several people here that love and cherish my presence.  I am very grateful for them.

I did not step into an easy situation with so many physical challenges in the body.  However, after being here for a while, I am finding my balance and finding ways to help it.  My annual updates can be found in each edition of The Code Journey; as I share the challenges and blessings of being here.

Prior to my entry Jesse had been through many things.  Below are only a few of the things:

*Although loved - she was not wanted by her mother, her birth was not just unplanned but unwanted - conception and birth, extending through life.

*Was sexually violated by a step-grandfather during a ritual as a baby - less than 2

*Was in a car accident as a small child - around 4-5

*Went through inappropriate behavior from a friend's uncle - around 4-5

*Dealt with repeated infections as a child - baby through about 15

*Found out that she didn't have full hearing, and didn't hear some sounds - around 7-8

*Was hit in the back with a baseball bat by a neighbor boy - around 10

*Was surrounded by a lightning bolt while in her car - 16

*Had around 150 Concussions - starting around - 15-16

*Fiancé was killed when his car was blown up - 17

*Had her Appendix removed - 17-18

*She was on the Hillside Strangler's List of upcoming victims 20-22

*She attempted suicide just before turning - 21

*Was dated raped 7x in one year from - 21-22

*Had a few mental and emotionally abusive relationships - 15-43

*Had breathing issues throughout her entire life

*Discovered she had lapsing/relapsing MS and dealt with it taking 2-3 hours to get out of bed, at one point; due to not being able to see past the end of her bed or being able to stand on her legs without assistance - late 30's

*Had intestinal issues - mid to late 30's on

*Was diagnosed with hypothyroidism - late 30's

*Was diagnosed with SLE (lupus) - late 30's

*Got sick with 105 degree temperature late - 30's

*Diagnosed with Chronic Rhinitis/Sinus issues late - 30's

*Lung issues - leaving reduced lung capacity in one lung - late 30's to early 40's

*Found out that one kidney is small; making it equivalent to having only 1 kidney - early 40's

*Found out there is reduced function in one lung - early 40's 

*Had 6 surgeries with 2 specialists over 6 1/2 - 7 hours - this was dealing with gallbladder, bowel, bladder, colon, adhesions, fibroids, total hysterectomy - early 40's - they said there was no medical reason for her to be alive

*Lost Father - 42

*Went into homelessness, dealing with -30 to -40 degree temperatures - 49 on

*Lost Orlie and Mother - 50

*Had a major car accident - was told many didn't survive that type of accident - she was rear-ended at 45-50mph while stopped.  Many issues came out of this, and continue to unfold - includes whiplash, I had to retrain the body to walk correctly after getting to a point of barely being able to walk - neck, spine, back, hip, memory issues, nervous system issues, Vagus Nerve issues, physical damage to Thyroid, Glottis, Epiglottis, body stuck out of alignment, Neuropathy - 53 to ongoing

*Frostbite - 53

Lost Sister - 53

I have since found out the following some of which are accident-related things:

*About another 6 concussions - 54 on

*Vision decline - 54 on

*Shot nerves or blown out nervous system causing shaking 3x - 55-57

This has left me unable to deal with certain conditions, like being around heavy equipment, construction areas, or living along high-speed roads due to the ground vibration.

*Homelessness off and on - 56 on

*Possible heart issues - 59 and ongoing

*Narcoleptic Aspects - 59 and ongoing

*EMF Sensitivity - 59 and ongoing

*Brain Shut Down Syndrome - 60 and ongoing

We all have challenges in life; but we don't have to let them stop us in life.  The challenges build strength, resilience, compassion, and many other things if we allow them to do so.  Jesse had a chance to be a victim or an inspiration from early on in life; and she chose to be an inspiration.  I hope that our experiences will do that.  I have good days and challenging days; just like anyone.

There will come a point where my body will need full time care; but until that time comes, I will continue doing the things that I can do.  I continue to work on solutions, healing my body where I can, clearing aspects of trauma, and holding as much love in my heart as I can.  Life is meant to be lived while we can.  We can't let our challenges stop us.

When I reflect on what my body has been through, I think of how much time we waste in life; and with each day I have, it is a reminder that we need to take time to cherish what it brings.  Even our challenges can be full of beauty and blessings, if we want to see them.  It just gives me a lot of experience to draw on when working with people.  We are not promised an easy journey in this Earth; but regardless of our circumstances, we always have a choice to make it a valuable one.